Interfaith discussion rulez XD...

Ah, last night was a blast... UIA held an interfaith discussion regarding the concept of God, and invited one representative of each major religion in Malaysia; Christianity, Hinduism, Buddhism, and of course, Islam... It was an enlighting discussion, although I can't help but to pity the Christian representative who were bombarded with sarcastic question regarding the concept of Holy Trinity... One of the female student even similarized the concept with a shampoo @_@...

The discussion was fairly good, but the main attraction was the disciple of the late Ahmed Deedat, who is also the representative for Islam... He qouted the concept of God in Islam not only from the Qur'an, but also from the Vedas as well as the Bible... I can almost see the look of astonishment of the President of Hindudharma as well as the Malaysian Catholic Arcbishop... I wonder if I'll have the chance to study under him later on... Afterall, all the holy scriptures of all religions tells us to seek for the ultimate truth, right?...

One thing for sure, the Buddhist speaker was kinda out of place, since Buddhism is a philosophy, rather than a religion... This is verified by the speaker himself, since he said that Buddhism and Confuciounism (I somehow don't think I spelled it right -__-) belongs to the same group... Therefore, on my opinion, a Buddhist can also be a Muslim at the same time... Why?... Because he's just following a set of philosophy... Therefore, it does not contradict with having another religion... It's like a Westerner practicing the Bushido way of life, yet he's a Christian...

I hope that there'll be another interfaith discussion soon... Or if any of the readers would like to have an interfaith discussion with me, do tell... I'd be delighted... The objective is just to have a discussion, not to convert the other into another religion... What matters most is that the truth is revealed, the acceptance of the truth is voluntary...

Enough about last night... I know that some of you were concerned about my last entry... Shinpai suru koto wa nai yo, minna... I'm okay... Although still kinda depressed since Alex was serious about not talking to me anymore T_T... Oh well, my fault... No use crying over it T_T (*got smacked by Kaede* crying and saying that at the same time does not convince people, baka neko!!)... I don't know if you're reading this, Alex... But I'm not asking much... I'm just asking for another chance to start from scratch... Then again, that might be asking too much already...

And guys, rather than worrying about me, I think we should be worrying about Tenzan and Cypher instead... Tenzan han an encounter with a pair of God-knows-who, who seems to take pleasure in making Ten's life a living Hell... As for Cypher, it seems that his ex's friends are taking the broken relationship matter into their own hands... *Sigh* why do people wish to be left in peace when they themselves make other people's life Hell... Now that's asking too much...

And I'm kinda worried about Kaede... It seems that she's been overworking herself lately... Lack of sleep, lack of proper meals (hey, that kinda sounds like me)... She should take care of herself if she wants to go to the limit... Ok, I sound like her mum, but hey, she's my sister... Although not biologically or etnically, but still my sister... Which brother won't be worried when his sister is not well?... To Kaede, get a hold of yourself, okay... Overdoing it will finish some work, but you'll never be satisfied with the result...

Oh well, tomorrow : Financial Management 2 Mid-term test... Haven't studied yet... Hopefully I can understand the bloody subject by 6am tomorrow... *laughs like a maniac, and bangs head on the wall every 5 minutes* Tanoshii na, Cho Gonou...

Yahhari, I'm a good for nothing afterall...

Guess what... I'm a good for nothing after all... Alex, apologizing would be an insult to you... It's my fault... Nothing can ever change that... Heh, no wonder I'm still ALONE all these time... I don't even deserve a place to belong to, much less someone to belong to... To anyone who reads this entry, this is the real me... Please stay away from me, for your own good... Please...

shinnoir... i trusted u wif those contents... do u know what would nubli feel if he sees it? or how would ppl be treating him after they read it on ur blog?? what about how i feel?i trusted u..and u posted it on the web for everyone to see? well here;s another statement to be posted on ur blog.. I DON'T WANNA TALK TO YOU ANYMORE~!dun bother worrying... i wouldn't tell on u.. on any blog...

Ahhhhhhhh!!!!!... Kuso, kuso, kusooooooo!!!!... *pant, pant*...

Bah!... I'm sooo in a destructive mood, I'd punch anyone who'd dare to rub me the wrong way these few days =.=""... I'm going to have a competition in two days time, and NONE of my so-called FRIENDS are willing to lend me a hand, much less moral support... Right now our team lacks two participants, and those whom I called gave me the lamest excuse I could've think of... One said, "Busy", yet have the guts to ask what competition... I can almost hear the, "NO" coming out by the time she said, "BUSY"... Another said, "Saye mesyuarat pon tak pergi, takkan nak masuk pertandingan?" (I don't even go to meetings, why should I participate in a competition?)... Come on, get real!!... This is not "School Days" anymore, it's our "Varsity Era", for God's sake... True, academic is important, no doubt about that, but it's through co-curricular activities all that we've learned theoretically are practically tested... Our communication skills, perceptions, critical thinking skills, and most importantly, teamwork... All this are not tested in an exam hall... Mattaku, this is what I hated most about Malaysia's exam-oriented education system... Bleargh, I'm sooo not going to talk to anyone after the competition, regardless whether I win or lose... Zettai ni *pouts*...

Neways, lots have happened in the past few days... Got my digikame a fortnight ago, and even became one of the facilitators for my High School's motivation camp... Okashii na, for someone like me to be a motivator XD... And last Saturday, went to Bon Odori Festival (and got lost during the festival, too >_<)... Seeing sooo many people wearing yukata makes me wanted to go to Japan more... Need the money first, though >_<... Will definitely go to Bon Odori next year, alone, that is... Not going to tag Shinta-kun and Habu-chan along anymore... How could they not enjoy the festival... Habu-chan even said that it's BORING =.='''''... The next day, went out to see Kaede, since I didn't get to see her in her costume... And suprise, suprise... Our famous lovebird is there too (Aiko and Chris, who else)... It's my first time seeing them (Aiko is getting a bit chubby, and Chris is sooooo hilarious... Maybe I should "rampas" him from Aiko XD)... And later the next day, chatted with Ten and Aiko... Ten listened on my singing, and said that I still have a long way to go... Chatted with him for quite some time, too... He's sure a nice guy, but he'd be nicer if he could work out his facial expression...

I've been watching a lot of animes lately... Getbackers, Trigun, Azumanga Daioh, etc... Getbackers somehow touched me... I see people yearning for a place they belong to, and found someone they belong to along with that they seek... As in, someone who accepts you as you are... Even the sissy-ish Kazuki... I know this might sound pathetic, but although it's just an anime, I envy them so much... To have someone who'd be there in all situation, who acknowledges your existence, I have none of those kind of friends... I'm still looking for the place and person that I belong to...  People do say that I've got lots of friends already, but to what extend?... I had a conversation with my sister concerning this, and she said something that somewhat gave me a ray of hope... Then again, I'm too tired to hope anymore... Hoping just makes it even more painful... the sadness of sorrow of being lonely, I wonder if I'd ever find someone who'd willingly share them with me... Maybe I'm destined to ease other people's sadness and sorrow, yet I have to shoulder mine on my own... The thought of that makes me want to cry, yet my tears have long dried... Ano ne, Kaede-chan... I really hope that someday I'll find that person, whom I belong to, kare ka kanojo ka, it doesn't matter... As long as I belong to that person... Demo ne, are there really any at all?...

Thank God for the food XD...

Ahhh... Finally, goodbye hunger XD XD... Mum had deposited some money this morning, and I got to treat myself to a wholesome lunch... It has been sometimes since the last time I had a decent lunch... But I might resort to my usual 3 peices of bread routine soon... XD XD...

Anyway, Kaede seems to be very busy at the moment... Since she hasn't updated her blog... Hopefully she's fine... Alexia sent me a message via Friendster, and I don't like what I read...

I know she's waaaay stronger spiritually as compared to me, but the way she sounded really makes me worried... She's important to me, because she's one of my closest "siblings", besides Kaede and Aiko... The fact that we haven't really met makes her even more special... Hey, there are very few people who'd trust me enough to tell me their up and downs without even meeting me in person... Even those who knew me upclose and personal are reluctant to do so... I hope she'll be fine... I'll rip off the stars from the heaven to make it fine for her, if I have to...

That's all for now, I think...

Jya, shitsure shimasu...

Nyaa... Hisashiburi deshou, ne?...

Wohoo... It has been some days, these few days... Ah, wasureta... Gomen ne, minna... I promised to be online everyday, but my computer won't let me go:P *background: kaede shouts "LAME EXCUSE* *got whacked on the head by kaede* Ouch >_<...

Well, lemme start with Saturday... Went to the first meeting of the archery class... I manage to dumb-struck the class by saying that I choose that class because I'm interested with Japanese art of archery... Then one of the girls asked me whether I'm interested about Bushido, the way of the Samurai... Heck, of course I do :P... Later, the class elected me as the leader/monitor... Mendokusei =_=""...

Next, went straight to KLCC, gathering with my seniors... As usual,I'm a bit left out... Because I'm not as loud as they can be, contrary to popular belief :3... And also because I'm not really the person they'd wanted to see... In every gathering we had before, the limelight would definitely be on Ihab... It's not like I'm jealous or something... Actually it's better this way... All the easier for me to slip away from time to time... Ne?... Left the gath at 1pm, and headed straight to TS, for the next gath :3...

On the way, Ihab suggested that we use another way... His argument was, "trying a new path"... Sou desu ne ^^'... It turns out that his way is a bit farther than my usual route... Then again, I can never argue with him anyway... Because first, he's good at arguing...And second, he's my *heards Kaede clearing her throat* BESTFRIEND... @Kaede: keep that a secret, okay :P... Arrived at TS at about 1.30pm, and met Kaede, Tofu, Craymel, and Mr. Dracula... I wonder the looks on Ihab's face when I hugged Kaede... I hope he won't despise me for that >_<... Hugging a girl is a no-no for him... Kaede immediately dragged me to McD, and we chatted about all things possible... As for Ihab, he impressed Mr. Dracula with his moves on the EZ2D machine XD XD... That's my bestfriend for you :P... Me and Kaede headed back to the arcade once notified of Tenzan's arrival... He's somewhat... ... ... gloomy?... Yeah, that's the word... I wonder why... Ihab had went back to KLCC by then... After a couple of hours spent there, we headed to the juice parlor downstairs, and continue chatting... After that, me and Cypher walked Kaede to the LRT station, and after that both of us walked back to KLCC... One thing I can say about Cypher now... He talks really fast, similar to the way he dances... Try talking slowly, ne, Cypher-kun... Arrived at UIA around 9pm, and went to sleep after prayer...

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SUNDAY

Usually Sunday is one of my FUNDAY, but not today >_<... Nothing much happened... Except the part which Kaede dreaded so much :P... That's it, she has a blood donation today... I wonder how it went... Also, the latest Aiko situation arised... Worse than I could ever imagines, since my uber hot-tempered step-dad had never dished me to THAT extend... The only time I had such beating was in Form 2 and 4... By students =_=... There are some other things that happened, but I'd keep that to myself until I'm ready to tell it to ya'll, okay :3...

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MONDAY

Uwaaaahhh... I still can't adapt to the student life >_<... Skipped one class today, since I went to Mandarin Oriental to apply for a baito... The workers there were NOT friendly at all :<... Didn't get the job TT______TT since my hair is a wee bit too long... Called my mom for financial reinforcement, and later went to KLCC to read some books... Demo ne, I kinda felt a bit blue yesterday... Well, I don't really know why... It's just a feeling I guess... Met Reza at RHB bank... He was meeting his "adik angkat" (hmm, maybe someday I could drag Kaede around and brag about her XD XD)... Ihab called on the way home, just when I was thinking about him *Yaoi alert :P*... He was thinking about coming over, but had to ditch the plan since he thought I was out... Oh well, the weather's not good anyway... I worry about him ten folds knowing that he's riding a bike after rain... He's an accident prone, I tell you... Started my GTO series marathon...

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TODAY

TT_________TT... My famous bad luck is getting worse TT__________TT... Mum said that I might get my reinforcement tomorrow only... There goes my haircut... And now I only have RM1... Literally broke TTTTTT___________________TTTTTT... Haraheta... ... ... Neways, finished GTO, and I was crying watching some of the episodes... Ima kara, boku wa kyoushu ni naritai *starry eyes*... Maybe someday I'll be GTI/GTS XD XD...

Ano ne... Kaede hasn't reply my e-mail... Perhaps she's busy... I just hope she was not offended with the e-mail I sent before... Nanka kowaichatta... To be honest, there are only 3 people that I really have great affection to... My Mum, Ihab, and Kaede... Dakara ne, I don't want to lose her, as a sister or as a friend... Zettai ni...

Mattaku, I'm talking nonsense again... Baka Shinnoir...

Jya, shitsure shimasu :3...